So, come with me as I unlock and enter the room. Stay with me as I reminisce the past; Tightly hold my hand as I face the present; And let our minds travel the future. Together, we will explore the BEAUTY of LIFE...
Do You Like Me?
January 31, 2010Soulmate,
You know what? I am really happy when I’m with Al… Super nag-aalala ko nung d sya pumasok nung Jan.28 and di sya ngttxtbk man lang. But when I received a text from him saying he’s okay, nakahinga ako ng maluwag… I care for him so much, to be honest with you! Si Mama at Papa araw2x na akong pinapagalitan dhil lagi akong late umuwi, halos wla nrw ko tulog…they knew lagi kong ksama si Al.. and maybe natatakot na rn sila na baka one day pagsawaan nlng nya mukha ko dahil araw2x na kmi magkasama!
What can I do? I am happy this way!
We first watched Cirque du Freak:The Vampire’s assistant, coz he knows I’m obsessed with vampire stories hehehe. I know he’s tired and sleepy but ayaw nya lang ipahalata sa akin. With that, I appreciate his effort. After the movie, we went to Starbucks (Trinoma garden), pinipilit ko syang itanong yung sbi nyang gustong itanong sa akin during our shift but sbi nya later nlng dw sa dinner. I let him smoke again… and I can see he’s happy!
Dinner time, we went to Gerry’s Grill. While waiting for the food to be served, I forced him to ask me his question. Kinakabahan daw sya but then napilit ko pa rn (nyahaha). He said: “Do you like me?” I smiled (hmmm medyo laugh nrn yun coz he’s also laughing, he cant believe himself dw asking that kind of question). I said, “Yup!” Then he asked:”Why?” I enumerated all his negative sides. He laughed,”why lahat yata negative?” I looked at him and answered: “lahat kasi ng lalake pag pumuporma, ipinapakita lang puro positives nila. Ayoko ng gnon! I also wanna see their negatives! Eh ikaw since we started as friends… nakita ko na lahat ng weaknesses mo and I accepted it. I never expected this to happen kasi pagod na akong magmahal at magtiwala and all I want before is yung bestfriend na lalake. But then mas nakilala kita…” (wow sobrang cheesy! but ayun ang nararamdaman ko tlga…)
However, I’m also open to the fact na there’s a big possibility na magkabalikan sila ni Sandy coz he still loves her and super effort etong si girlalooh! With that, I’m also ready! All I wanted is his happiness… though it means I need to sacrifice my own happiness…
The Dinner Bonding
January 24, 2010When I woke up this morning, I’m not feeling well: my body’s aching… may sinat ako! Maybe bumigay na yung katawan ko sa sobrang pagod… maybe I just need some rest.
After shift, Al and I decided to have some quality time together. We went to Trinoma, naglibot libot lang, kwento ng kung ano anong bagay. We watched “Legion”, it’s a great movie although the acting was poor. After the movie, we stayed dun sa pwede syang magyosi and we had fun criticizing people hehehe.
Fast forward….
6:00pm, we went to Padis Point to have dinner. He’s so quiet… looking into his eyes, I know there’s something that he would like to tell me. I asked him if he has a question for me or if he would like to share anything. He said nothing, so I started to ask “nung hinawakan mo kamay ko nung andun tyo sa bahay mo, what does it mean?” He answered, “I really want to hold your hand” I asked him if he got offended with my initial reaction (”ang sabi ko paputukin mo kamay ko hndi hawakan!”), after ko kasi sabihin yun bgla nya inalis kamay nya. How I wish dko na lang yun sinabi… sana pinabayaan ko nlng sya. OMG! Stop with that thought!
Then he said, “If you’re gonna ask me if I like you, YES!” But he’s trying to hold back daw coz there are lots of complications… our exs baggage. Laging nkabakod si Vic sa akin, kilala sya ni Vic and trusted him. And then, ayaw dw nya ako paasahin dhil he’s not sure if he still loves his ex, Sandy. I’m already expecting that… and I understand. Kakabreak lang nila ng ex nya and I can feel he’s still hurting!
Well, If you’re also gonna ask me, my answer is YES! However, I am wiser now… an open mind! Mas understanding na ako ngayon… I understand a lot of things! I don’t wanna rush things. If he’s my destiny then let everything happens for what is destined to happen.
One thing for sure though, I want him to be happy! His happiness is also my happiness though at times his happiness may also be my loneliness.
My Bestfriend
January 17, 2010Yes, I could say that I totally moved on from the heartbreak my ex caused me! Makasalubong ko man sya sa mall, I can face him with my head up high… no more pain! Thanks to my friends and support from my family!
After shift, Rommel, Al, Norz and I had a breakfast at SM North. 1pm when we finished our food and call it a day… but Al and I decided to stay and watched movie (Sherlock Holmes)… uhmmm the movie was funny but dko type! Then, 7:00 we went straight to Paddis Point, had a chat.. and then he said he’s wondering we were not attracted to each other although many people said we looked good together, we jive and understands each other. I cant answer that question either! Im not closing my door to anyone especially to him since I knew him so well… he’s my bestfriend! I made him promise that no matter what happens in the future, we still have each other… i dont wanna lose him!
Before I went to bed, I received a text from Al saying he cant promise that he’s not gonna fall inlove with me. I realized I am indeed smiling while I was reading his message! Will it be possible that my bestfriend can also be my destiny? Is he the one I am waiting for… my SOULMATE?!
