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In Sooo Much Pain…
October 2, 2009It’s been almost two weeks since he decided to disown me, but still I consider myself still locked in the shadow of loneliness. Unlike my past relationships, eto yung pinakamahirap magmove on… maybe because kay Brianne ko naramdaman na sobrang nagmahal ako although we’re together for just 7 months. Do I deserve this so much pain? I lost weight (well, my unwanted fat on my tummy was gone) but super pumayat talaga ako. I can’t eat well, I can’t sleep, can’t focus on my job, I can’t smile… sakit na rin mata ko kakaiyak! Wala naman akong ginagawang masama sa kanya para parusahan nya ako ng ganito… I love him… I love him… I love him so much… and with this I hate myself! Coz it’s obvious that he no longer loves me at pinagsisiksikan ko pa sarili ko sa kanya! He already disowned me… I have done my first move but it seems balewala yun sa kanya. Tell me, should I continue this fight? or should I stop?
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Hi, Jaymee! Thank you for the comment… it really uplifts my spirit! =)
Yup I am okay… and I’m so glad that I survived. One problem though, I’m finding it hard now to trust men…
Anyway, thanks again! =)
Posted by lifeisbeautiful at November 21, 2009, 7:03 ameverybody survives and moves on. yun nga lang you have to go though all the process of denial, acceptance blahh blaahh blaahh but eventually it heals.
your afraid to trust men because your afraid of getting hurt again? don’t be. how are you going to get to know you soulmate kung ganun right? well, lets just say next time just be careful. I believe that knowing his background, his past relationships and how it ended, is a big plus to approximate how a lover he is.
P.S. sorry sa kabilang site. i didn’t know. i was just making a point there =)
Posted by jaymee at November 21, 2009, 10:49 amhttp://fheyts.blogspot.com/2009/09/heartache.html
you see it is already his practice before so its not worth it. move on like she did =)
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sweetie.. i hope your ok by now.
no one deserves that kind of pain. as i see it after a 7 years serious relationship with his ex and him being dumped, he is back on his playing game just like anyone else
once a player always a player. did you know why his ex dumped him? maybe for the same reason too right? you did not lose anything, u just loved
Posted by jaymee at November 20, 2009, 3:45 pm